"I'd like to be myself again but I'm still trying to find it."

"You know what my biggest regret is? 

Not having done enough I actually regretted."

"(...) before you speak think about how your words might affect someone else."

When I look around I see lots of people being something they really aren't just because of what people are saying or the things they might say. I see this. I'm not that naive. But I chose to ignore it. Because I chose not to be part of that. I remember a time when I wanted not to be afraid of being myself. I wanted to show who I am in every single thing I was going to do. Even if nobody else was doing it. 

And now I am.

I was able to change so much about me...my weaknesses...and I'm very proud of myself. It's just so sad to see that nobody else is. People always find something to criticize. They make you feel like, no matter what you do, you will never be good enough. It doesn't matter what you accomplished, it only matters what you haven't got yet. 

We spend most of time telling people who are insecure that they shouldn't care or listen to what people say. Now, on the other hand, there's me. Someone who's able to ignore other people's opinions. Someone who's not afraid to walk on the streets being herself hearing the comments some people make sometimes. And you know what they tell me? That I can't be like that! You really need to decide which one you want because I am so tired of being criticized all the time! I may not be perfect but I am doing a pretty good job on becoming a better me. I don't care if that's not enough for you. Because to me, it is. And it also doesn't matter what you say. Because, although you made me feel bad about myself for some time, I am so over that. 

I'm not going to change. Because I don't care what people have to say about me when I walk on the street. What matters is that I'm happy being me. Always. And you should be ashamed for making me feel bad about who I am. 

That's the truth. 

I'm not the problem here. 

You are. 

"Geoffrey Chaucer wrote: Time heals all wounds.

But what he failed to mention was the scars those wounds leave behind. The painful things that happen to us permanently leave their mark. They don't necessarily hurt anymore but they're always there as a reminder, as a memory. And as time passes, maybe the memory gets a little fuzzy. But we always have the scar to remind us it happened. That we lived through it. That we survived. And maybe I had some scars on me but I felt like I was now ready to leave my mark on the world."

"There's a brief moment when you first wake up where you have no memories. A blissful blank slate, a happy emptiness. But it doesn't last long, and you remember exacly where you are and what you were trying to forget."

Mirrors

"Aren't you somethin' to admire?

Cause your shine is something like a mirror

And I can't help but notice

You reflect in this heart of mine

If you ever feel alone and

The glare makes me hard to find 

Just know that I'm always 

Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul

I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go 

Just put your hand on the glass 

I'll be trying to pull you through

(...)

Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm looking right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space that now you hold

(...)

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making

Two reflections into one

Cause it's like you're my mirror 

My mirror staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original

(...)

And I can't help but stare, cause

I see truth somewhere in your eyes

(...)

You reflect me, I love that about you

And if I could, I

Would look at us all the time

(...)

Yesterday is history

Tomorrow's a mystery

I can see you lookin' back at me

Baby, keep your eyes on me

(...)

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song

(...)

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you

My reflection, in everything I do."

- Justin Timberlake 

"Não vim a este mundo para competir com ninguém. Quem quer competir comigo perde o seu tempo. 

Estou neste mundo para competir comigo mesma. 

Ultrapassar os meus limites, 
vencer os meus medos, 
lutar contra os meus defeitos, 
superar dificuldades, 
correr em busca dos meus objectivos
...E tudo isto já me ocupa bastante tempo."

And it always goes back to this. I'm crying. My eyes are empty and tears roll down my face. It gets hard to breath. The room starts spining. I feel like I'm going to faint. 

It would be easier if I did.

This happened so many times I already lost track of them. But I understood tonight that maybe that's a good thing. That means I've been strong enough to feel better again. What I don't understand is why do I get pushed to this all over again? I don't want to feel this way. I'm so scared. I read once that God would never put me through anything I can't handle but the truth is I don't feel like I can fight this anymore. Everytime it's like I'm falling into a black hole. And I'm scared one of this days I will. I'm so exausted. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I'm losing myself. 

What will happen to me?

I wanna feel powerful

"And all of a sudden I felt really tired. Like the world had drained me for everything that I had."

Stay

"(...) I'm lonely here tonight

Lost here in this moment and time keeps slipping by

And if I could have just one wish

I'd have you by my side.

I miss you.

I need you. 

And I love you more than I did before

And if today I don't see your face

Nothing's changed, no one can take your place

It gets harder everyday.

(...)

Well I try to live without you

The tears fall from my eyes

I'm alone and I feel empty

God, I'm torn apart inside.

I look up at the stars

Hoping you're doing the same

Somehow I feel closer and I can hear you say:

I miss you.

I need you.

Say you love me more than you did before

And I'm sorry that it's this way

But I'm coming home, I'll be coming home

And if you ask me I will stay, 
I will stay

Always stay."

                                                                   

-  Miley Cyrus

Some people say that is really hard to be different. That's true, I used to think a lot about that. When you are that different there's no one to "follow", you have to think and do everything by yourself. What people often forget is the bright side of that situation.

That's the most difficult but also closest way to get to know yourself. 

So I am telling you, do not be afraid to be the way you are, even if you feel strange or weird. 

That's okay.  

You shouldn't say or do something just because someone else is doing it. 

You have the right to have a different opinion and speak for yourself.

"People are always telling me that I'm not like the other girls...that I don't dress like other girls...that I don't act like other girls. But I'm my own person. I go to the beat of my own drum."

                                                                                                                               

- Miley Cyrus

Fifteen

"(...) In your life you'll do things greater than dating the boy of the football team but I didn't know it at fifteen.

When all you wanted was to be wanted,

Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now."

- Taylor Swift

"You've always been the one to bring me up when I was down. Even when I was in my darkest times, you still didn't let me drown."

"Butterflies can't see their wings. They can't see how truly beautiful they are but everyone else can. People are like that as well."

"Centenas ou até milhares de pessoas passam por ti todos os dias. Mas, se parares para pensar, verás que no máximo meia dúzia delas se apercebem da tua presença e, dessas mesmas pessoas, apenas uma ou duas dão valor a ela."

I'm the girl

"I'm the girl who prefers one rose instead of a dozen. I'm the girl who would rather stay in on a Friday night than go to wild party with random strangers. I'm the girl who would rather stay up all night sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk. I'm the girl who won't make you hold her bags but would rather hold your hand instead. I'm the girl who will love you more that anyone can possibly dream of. I'm the girl who would give the world to see you smile."

Because I'm not normal

"This wasn't a choice between you and Jacob. It was between who I should be and who I am. I've always felt out of step. Like literally stumbling through my life. I never felt normal. Because I'm not normal. I don't wanna be. I've had to face death and loss and pain in your world. But I've also never felt stronger, more real, more myself. Because it's my world too. It's where I belong." 

                                     

            - The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

Time to make mistakes

"When we were five they asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up. Our answers were things like astronaut, president. Or in my case, a princess. When we were ten they asked again, and we answered rock star, cowboy. Or in my case, a gold medalist. But now that we've grown up they want a serious answer. Well, how about this...who the hell knows?

This isn't the time to make hard and fast decisions. This is the time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere. Fall in love, a lot. Major in philosophy because there's no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind, and change it again, because nothing is permanent. So, make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask what we wanna be we won't have to guess. We'll know."

                                                            The Twilight Saga: Eclipse

Ride

"Every night I used to pray that I'd find my people, and finally I did on the open road. We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain, nothing we desired anymore, except to make our lives into a work of art. Live fast, die young, be wild and have fun. I believe in the country America used to be. I believe in the person I want to become. I believe in the freedom of the open road. And my motto is the same as ever: "I believe in the kindness of strangers. And when I'm at war with myself, I ride, I just ride". Who are you? Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies? Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them? I have. I am fucking crazy. But I am free."

                                                                                Lana Del Rey

"I wanted everything to stay the same but feelings fade and people change."

"You're brave enough to follow your passion no matter what people might say. That's true style."

"I know you're scared right now. Maybe you miss someone, maybe your heart hurts a little. Or a lot. Or maybe you're not quite sure of who you are or what you want but that feeling you want back, the one where it doesn't seem like the whole world is against you, it's still here. It never really left. And one day you will realise that the only person who can find it again is you."

"Remember that you are young, beautiful, individual and unique and that is worth everything in this world."

Enough!

I know things might seem impossible to change. Like you can't escape the way you're feeling right now. It's like you're in a fucking cage and you just can't seem to be able to get out. I really do know. Everyday I wake up and, although I feel numb, empty inside, somehow I find the strenght to get up and do all the things I gotta do. But that's not enough! I have to try harder. I know that even if you give your best to be strong every single day that goes by, you still let some negativity get to your thoughts. But that's over. No more negativity. I will feel hope, faith, wonder and beauty again. I will feel alive. I am stronger than anything that gets thrown my way. It can take a while but I know I can do this. I know I'm not the only one feeling like this in the world so we'll do this together. Let's just live one day at a time. I'm ready to go back to the girl I'm meant to be. I'm gonna fight this darkness. And I'm going to win. What about you? 

I know I came to this world to have the courage to pursue my dreams and leave a mark no one can leave for me. Just follow my example. Find some inspiration. There's a lot of things, we're just not paying attention. There's music, and people, and places...You have to believe. We are gonna get through this.

Prepare to be fearless, to be the change you want to see in the world. Put who you are in every single thing you do. 

"Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. So Imma get stronger." 

Press/Society

There's some things in this world that I just can't understand. This is one of them.

Mostly when you are a teenager you have this tendency to "follow". You're afraid to be who you are, you don't think who you are is good enough or you just have no idea of who you are.

But some people are not afraid to be who they are, to fight for what they want and say what they have to say not caring what others think about that. They end up showing everyone that they've got their own light. 

You should be ashamed of yourselves for trying to bring those people down. You are making others afraid of being who they are too. Because the example you're giving is that they are going to be judged. And unfortunately I have to agree with them. Not because I will judge them. But because you will.

It doesn't matter what happens to me after tonight 'cause now I'm completely sure that 

I belong with you guys somehow.

"Hear with your heart, 

see with your soul, 

be guided by a hand that you cannot hold, 

and trust even if you cannot see."

"Don't be afraid to fail. 

Be afraid not to try."

Crónica - Viagem no Tempo

As viagens no tempo são algo bastante frequente nas vidas de todos nós. Durante todo o nosso percurso existem alguns momentos em que nos transportamos entre o passado e o presente e temos tendência para nos agarrarmos a memórias e a acontecimentos que nos marcaram mas que jamais voltarão. No entanto, existem outros tipos menos frequentes deste género de travessia.  Para que melhor percebam o que quero dizer com isto, dou-vos como exemplo o retrocesso temporal visado na tentativa de assumirmos outras personalidades pertencentes a indivíduos de gerações anteriores e observarmos o presente através dos seus olhos. É isso que vou agora tentar produzir e talvez vos consiga sensibilizar a tentarem fazer o mesmo.

O modo de vida que é visível nos dias de hoje é completamente diferente do existente à diversos anos atrás. À já algum tempo, pessoas como a minha mãe ou os meus avós foram obrigados a crescer muito depressa. Desde uma tenra idade começaram a trabalhar arduamente para poderem sobreviver e tiveram que deixar para trás coisas importantes como a sua educação. Nunca tiveram sequer qualquer perspectiva de crescer a sonhar, a imaginar, a desejar poderem alcançar os seus sonhos e, na minha opinião, essas são partes essenciais da nossa existência pois ajudam-nos a decifrar quem somos, o que queremos ser, os objectivos que queremos alcançar.

Tendo em conta todas estas características de uma geração passada, penso que naturalmente conseguimos perceber que o que vemos nos dias de hoje é algo completamente diferente. A nossa sociedade é uma sociedade de consumo. Considera como bens essenciais roupas de marca, objectos tecnológicos, entre todo o tipo de tendências que seja possível seguir. Mas o mais grave nem é isso. É não saber dar valor a tudo aquilo que tem. Apesar de todas as dificuldades presentes no nosso dia-a-dia, os jovens da geração a que pertenço tiveram oportunidades que para muitos não passaram de fantasias.

Apesar de ter noção que estamos perante uma grande crise económica que cada vez mais se sente na pele, acredito que devemos manter o positivismo e, acima de tudo, devemos começar por aprender a valorizar o que realmente importa. Se todos nós nos dermos ao trabalho de tentar ver a nossa vida com outros olhos, iremos finalmente reparar que, comparadamente com muitas das pessoas das quais descendemos, temos milhões de oportunidades neste mundo. Porém, para que nos seja possível ver isso, é preciso acreditar e lutar com toda a nossa garra pelos nossos sonhos. Principalmente agora. Não podemos estar sentados à espera que alguma coisa nos caia do céu. É preciso ter esperança que venham dias melhores. Está na hora de também nós nos tornarmos adultos. Quando lutarmos não o estaremos a fazer unicamente por nós mas tendo também no pensamento todos os que não puderam usufruir das suas ambições e desejos. Ainda vão a tempo de mudar o rumo das vossas vidas e talvez um dia sejam os vossos filhos a viajar no tempo, a relembrarem com orgulho a vossa história e a seguirem o vosso exemplo.

I don't fit in

I don't fit in. I don't belong with this people. I know that. But even though I don't mind it as long as I get to be myself, sometimes I get kind of lonely. 'Cause once in a while everyone needs someone that understands you and has an opinion that's close to the one you have and most of the time I feel like I'm a fucking unicorn or an alien 'cause others have this tendency to always think and have an opinion completely different than mine. Nowadays teenagers don't even know what having standards means! For them that doesn't matter at all. What matters is to have the most expensive stuff, go to the best clubs, make fun of people that somehow are different, run away from any kind of responsability and hanging out with the coolest girls and boys around. They're shallow, mean...and seem to be incapable of any kind act. That's not who I wanna be.

Today I was really happy to see that there's someone in the world that's actually kind of like me.  And now I don't even care if nobody else comes up. Because suddently I didn't feel so alone anymore.

"People will hate you, rate you, shake you and break you. But how strong you stand is what makes you."

"Sometimes quiet people have a lot to say but they just don't open up to anybody."

You be de judge

"Aquela feiosa tem mesmo ar de quem anda a ouvir atrás das portas!"

What the hell is wrong with this world??

"(...) But at the end of the day who you are is totally and completely up to you."

One day

"Maybe not today, 
                              or tomorrow, 
                                                    or even in a year, 

                                                                             but eventually things will turn up, you will get better and be able to look back and say with relief: I made it!"

Six billion people

"At this moment there are 6 470 818 671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men at war with good and some are good struggling with evil. Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls and sometimes...all you need is one."

                                - One Tree Hill

You're gonna change the world someday

"Life kicks you around sometimes. It scares you and it beats you up but there's a day when you realize that you're not just a survivor. You're a warrior. You're tougher than anything it throws your way."

                                                                                                              - Brooke Davis

"And one day we will say that all the crap that led us here was worth the moment when everything made sense."

Life's hard

Life is very very hard and there will be times when you're going to struggle. There will be times when you won't know what to do. You'll feel completely lost and hopeless and you'll just want to give up. All of it. But you have to be strong because the best things in life come with work, effort and faith. 

Don't give up. Because one day you'll be very proud you didn't.

Nothing Like Us

Lately I've been thinkin',
Thinkin' bout what we had,
I know it was hard,
It was all that we knew, yeah

Have you been drinkin'
To take all the pain away?
I wish that I could give you what you deserve...

'Cause nothing can ever,
Ever replace you.
Nothing can make me feel like you do, yeah.
You know there's no one
I can relate to.
And know we won't find a love that's so true...
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together through the storm.
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together, oh

I gave you everything, baby,
Everything I had to give.
Girl, why would you push me away, yeah?
Lost in confusion,
Like an illusion,
You know I'm used to making your day...

But that is the past now,
We didn't last now,I guess that this is meant to be, yeah...
Tell me, was it worth it?
We were so perfect.
But, baby, I just want you to see...

There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together through the storm.
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together, oh...

                                                                           Justin Bieber - Nothing Like Us

Someone

"If you look close enough to the world around you, you might find someone like you. Someone trying to find their way. Someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it seems like you are the only one in the world who's struggling, who's frustrated, unsatisfied, barely getting by. But that feeling's a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. We need someone to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you."

"And the day I think it's just about making money is going to be the day that I've betrayed everything I believe in."

Stop telling me what to do!

I just can't take the fact that nobody seems to be able to understand that I don't need all the crap you want me to do to be happy. I just want to be myself, to have a job I love, to be near my family, to have my own space with all my personal stuff and that feeling of being home, to always search for more knowledge and to be able to help people in ways that I can't right now. That's all I need to be happy. So stop telling me what to do! 'Cause I won't do it. 

"You know what's better? Love. The day you start thinking that love is overrated is the day that you're wrong. The only thing wrong with love and faith and belief is not having it."

Do you ever wish you had a second chance to meet someone again for the first time?

"(...) Is someone telling you you can't or won't? Because you can. Believe that love is out there. Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family and the quiet nobility of leading a good life. So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy because you deserve to be. Believe that. And believe that dreams come true every day. Because they do."

Lyric Girl

You know, I've got this theory. There are two kinds of people in the world: there are lyric people and music people. 

The lyric people tend to be analytical. You know, all about the meaning of the song. They're the ones you see pouring over the lyrics, interpreting the hell out of everything. 

Then there's the music people...who couldn't care less for the lyrics as long as it has like a good beat and you could dance to it. 

I don't know, sometimes it might be easier to be a music girl and not a lyric girl. But since I'm not, let me just say this: Sometimes things find you when you need them to find you. I believe that. And for me it's usually song lyrics. 

- Peyton Sawyer

"Own it!
             Live It!
                         Love It!

Stop being ashamed of who you are."

"Well, you know what? Everyone is different and we all have to respect one another and our opinions!"

I think we look at society and we look at every advertisment that's out there and everything that tell us how we're supposed to look, how we're supposed to live and how we're supposed to be instead of saying "Is that how I really feel?", "Is that really what I want to do?"and "Is that really how I want to live?"

- Ellen

Lugares lotados de pessoas vazias

Sometimes that can be very hard but I  don't mind being different. I actually love it. I don't want to be like everybody else. I don't like what I see. When I look around I see people that give much importance to things like money, fame, power,...and other thinks like trust, honesty, love,...they have no value. 

So even though people don't understand me and think I'm some kind of freak when I'm expressing myself, I don't fucking care. 'Cause the truth is that the thoughts that other people have on you don't matter at all. What's really important is what you think of yourself. If you're proud of who you are.

You can call me all the things you want but at the end of the day I'm proud to be me.