Peito

"E se quiseres confirmação 

Tem atenção

Escuta o meu peito

Escuta este meu peito

Meu coração torna-se inquieto

Quando estás por perto."

- HMB

It's You

My favorite part of myself is you: the few people in this world who love me and accept me for who I truly am.

They never failed to impress me with their kindness and selflessness. Although they are so different and special to me on so many different levels, that is something they all have in common. Each one of them helped push up a different side of mine.

There were times when I felt completely lost and they helped me remember who I really am. Because they are the only ones who truly know me. 

There were times when I felt completely broken and they would lift me up. Because they are the only ones who know who I am meant to be. 

That's my favorite part of myself. That although it always scared me to let someone in, I was able to let in these people who I connected so deeply with that they became portions of my heart without me even realizing it. I'd like to think I'm part of them too. Life gives you the opportunities but it's up to you to connect the pieces.

I will not take them for granted. I understand how incredibly lucky I am to have them. I know that, wherever life takes me and whatever challenges come my way, I don't have to go through them alone. Never again. 

Keep A Journal

"If you're serious about becoming a wealthy, powerful, sophisticated, healthy, influential, cultured and unique individual, keep a journal."

- Jim Rohn 

Chasing The Sun

"When the daylight's fading,

We're gonna play in the dark 'till it's golden again."

- Chasing The Sun by The Wanted

All These Years

That's when I heard his voice. How is it possible that after all these years it doesn't take me more than a second to recognize his laugh?

Although I was astonished by how quickly I recognized him without even having to see his face, I froze. I didn't look at him. I didn't get up to go talk to him. I was actually praying that he wouldn't acknowledge me. 

After I arrived home that night I spent hours wondering why the hell I simply didn't do anything. I was making excuses for myself, unaware that I was trying to take the easy way out. Some people spend so much time apart that they become complete strangers and whatever they felt belongs in the past. However, I know we are not the case. I don't see us as strangers, that wouldn't be the truth. The truth is much more complicated than that. 

Deep down I knew that I didn't do anything because this is not the person I would want you to see after all this time. 

When we talk again I want you to see that although we're older an not the same people anymore you can still find a glimpse of the girl I used to be. I want you to see the real me. However, I'm currently struggling to find her. I want you to see me happy. I want you to be proud of how far I've gotten and how I was able to make a good life for myself. And that's not me right now. This girl would disappoint you. 

Fear

"Fear does not prevent death. It prevents life."

- Naguib Mahfouz