"You know what my biggest regret is? 

Not having done enough I actually regretted."

"(...) before you speak think about how your words might affect someone else."

When I look around I see lots of people being something they really aren't just because of what people are saying or the things they might say. I see this. I'm not that naive. But I chose to ignore it. Because I chose not to be part of that. I remember a time when I wanted not to be afraid of being myself. I wanted to show who I am in every single thing I was going to do. Even if nobody else was doing it. 

And now I am.

I was able to change so much about me...my weaknesses...and I'm very proud of myself. It's just so sad to see that nobody else is. People always find something to criticize. They make you feel like, no matter what you do, you will never be good enough. It doesn't matter what you accomplished, it only matters what you haven't got yet. 

We spend most of time telling people who are insecure that they shouldn't care or listen to what people say. Now, on the other hand, there's me. Someone who's able to ignore other people's opinions. Someone who's not afraid to walk on the streets being herself hearing the comments some people make sometimes. And you know what they tell me? That I can't be like that! You really need to decide which one you want because I am so tired of being criticized all the time! I may not be perfect but I am doing a pretty good job on becoming a better me. I don't care if that's not enough for you. Because to me, it is. And it also doesn't matter what you say. Because, although you made me feel bad about myself for some time, I am so over that. 

I'm not going to change. Because I don't care what people have to say about me when I walk on the street. What matters is that I'm happy being me. Always. And you should be ashamed for making me feel bad about who I am. 

That's the truth. 

I'm not the problem here. 

You are. 

"Geoffrey Chaucer wrote: Time heals all wounds.

But what he failed to mention was the scars those wounds leave behind. The painful things that happen to us permanently leave their mark. They don't necessarily hurt anymore but they're always there as a reminder, as a memory. And as time passes, maybe the memory gets a little fuzzy. But we always have the scar to remind us it happened. That we lived through it. That we survived. And maybe I had some scars on me but I felt like I was now ready to leave my mark on the world."

"There's a brief moment when you first wake up where you have no memories. A blissful blank slate, a happy emptiness. But it doesn't last long, and you remember exacly where you are and what you were trying to forget."

Mirrors

"Aren't you somethin' to admire?

Cause your shine is something like a mirror

And I can't help but notice

You reflect in this heart of mine

If you ever feel alone and

The glare makes me hard to find 

Just know that I'm always 

Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul

I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go 

Just put your hand on the glass 

I'll be trying to pull you through

(...)

Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm looking right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space that now you hold

(...)

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making

Two reflections into one

Cause it's like you're my mirror 

My mirror staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original

(...)

And I can't help but stare, cause

I see truth somewhere in your eyes

(...)

You reflect me, I love that about you

And if I could, I

Would look at us all the time

(...)

Yesterday is history

Tomorrow's a mystery

I can see you lookin' back at me

Baby, keep your eyes on me

(...)

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song

(...)

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you

My reflection, in everything I do."

- Justin Timberlake 

"Não vim a este mundo para competir com ninguém. Quem quer competir comigo perde o seu tempo. 

Estou neste mundo para competir comigo mesma. 

Ultrapassar os meus limites, 
vencer os meus medos, 
lutar contra os meus defeitos, 
superar dificuldades, 
correr em busca dos meus objectivos
...E tudo isto já me ocupa bastante tempo."

And it always goes back to this. I'm crying. My eyes are empty and tears roll down my face. It gets hard to breath. The room starts spining. I feel like I'm going to faint. 

It would be easier if I did.

This happened so many times I already lost track of them. But I understood tonight that maybe that's a good thing. That means I've been strong enough to feel better again. What I don't understand is why do I get pushed to this all over again? I don't want to feel this way. I'm so scared. I read once that God would never put me through anything I can't handle but the truth is I don't feel like I can fight this anymore. Everytime it's like I'm falling into a black hole. And I'm scared one of this days I will. I'm so exausted. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I'm losing myself. 

What will happen to me?

I wanna feel powerful

"And all of a sudden I felt really tired. Like the world had drained me for everything that I had."