Because Of You

"My heart can't possibly break 

When it wasn't even whole to start with."

- Because Of You by Kelly Clarkson

"(...) but then I realized that I was holding on to something that didn't exist anymore. That the person I missed didn't exist anymore. People change. The things we like and dislike change. And we can wish they wouldn't all day long, but that never works."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"(...) and I realize that remains is the wrong word. The ashes of a body are just that - ashes. The dust of our bones. What remains are the people she left behind. The wave of history and love, however confusing and imperfect, she left for her family."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"It's just that my family is really great at burying things and pretending to move on."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"It's harder to dig up the old bones and sift through the dirt than it is to let them rest in peace."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"(...) and in the space between our lives, he's grown and changed as I have - separate, away, strangers who are still connected by some weird cosmic rubber band, stretched apart for nearly a decade only to be snapped back together in this moment (...)".

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"(...) and I wonder how much we don't see. How much of our lives we witness and accept as truth when the rest of the iceberg - the heaviest, bulkiest part - is buried and invisible."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"He helped me run away from myself without really going anywhere."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"And now that I've had the real thing, I'm not going to settle for anything less."

- Fixing Delilah by Sarah Ockler 

"It had taken years to put themselves back together, and so what if some things didn't get put back in the right place? 

At least they could hold themselves up. 

Most of the time."

- Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

"Sometimes writing is running downhill, your fingers jerking behind you on the keyboard the way your legs do when they can't quite keep up with gravity."

- Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell

I finally realized that it doesn't matter if I'm able to go through this alone or not. 

What matters is that I don't have to.