"(...) standing on the edge between their present and future, not quite ready to jump."

- Once And For All by Sarah Dessen 

Let Me Go

Inspired by Let Me Go (Hailee Steinfeld & Alesso):

You made plans while I made problems. You were making efforts while I was blindly pushing you away. We were back to back, we knew this thing wouldn't last, how could it? I've built these walls so high that you couldn't possibly climb them. I've been doing it for so long I never knew how to stop it. I wished for picture perfect but it seemed unreachable to me. Now I see that I had a picket white fence but I ended up painting it black. 

I wish I could say you had hurt me harder that I hurt you but we both know that wouldn't be true. 

I've been hoping somebody loves you in the ways I couldn't. Someone who doesn't have this much to change.

I understand why you had to let me go.

And in the end, I was trying to hold on to something I actually never allowed myself to have. 

That moment...

that huge moment...

when you hear a song and you finally feel something again.

Books

Today I will be writing about books.

I'm very passionate about them, I've always been. You could probably tell by my room. So many books and so many bookmarks.

These elements allow you to enter different worlds, "meet" different people and have adventures with them. When I'm reading, I find it so hard to "come back" to my world and my life because it felt so great to be part of something different and feel what the characters were feeling. Some of them will even stay with you forever.

Some books also inspire me to write. However, I believe that their most important purpose is to teach you lessons. Those are my favorite kind of books. When you finish them you feel like a different person and you are, you've grown because you learned something new that will be useful for your own life.

It's because of all that I mentioned that my absolute favorite book is The Orange Girl by Jostein Gaarder.

If you feel the same way as me, I would recommend you to read this one. So heartbreaking but at the same time it will enrichen your life.

I will continue writing, reading and finding gems that will always stay with me. In my heart and on my shelves ;)