Speechless

"Here comes a wave meant to wash me away

A tide that is taking me under

Swallowing sand, left with nothing to say

My voice drowned out in the thunder 

But I won't cry

And I won't start to crumble 

Whenever they try

To shut me or cut me down 

I won't be silenced 

You can't keep me quiet 

Won't tremble when you try it 

All I know is I won't go speechless

'Cause I'll breathe

When they try to suffocate me 

Don't you underestimate me 

'Cause I know that I won't go speechless 

(...)

'Cause I

I cannot start to crumble

So come on and try

Try to shut me and cut me down

I won't be silenced 

You can't keep me quiet 

Won't tremble when you try it 

All I know is I won't go speechless, speechless

Let the storm in

I cannot be broken

No, I won't live unspoken

'Cause I know that I won't go speechless

Try to lock me in this cage

I won't just lay me down and die

I will take these broken wings 

And watch me burn across the sky

Hear the echo saying 

I won't be silenced 

Though you wanna see me tremble when you try it

All I know is I won't go speechless, speechless

'Cause I'll breathe 

When they try to suffocate me

Don't you underestimate me 

'Cause I know that I won't go speechless

All I know is I won't go speechless

Speechless."

- Speechless by Naomi Scott

Someone You Loved

"I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to save me

This all or nothing really got a way of driving me crazy

I need somebody to heal, somebody to know

Somebody to have, somebody to hold

it's easy to say, but it's never the same

I guess I kinda liked the way you numbed all the pain 

Now the day bleeds into nightfall 

And you're not here to get me through it all

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug 

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I'm going under and this time I fear there's no one to turn to 

This all or nothing way of loving got me sleeping without you

Now I need somebody to know, somebody to heal

Somebody to have just to know how it feels

It's easy to say, but it's never the same 

I guess I kinda liked the way you helped me escape

Now the day bleeds into nightfall

And you're not here to get me through it all

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug 

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved 

And I tend to close my eyes when it hurts sometimes 

I fall into your arms 

I'll be safe in your sound 'till I come back around 

For now, the day bleeds into nightfall

And you're not here to get me through it all

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug 

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved 

But now the day bleeds into nightfall

And you're not here to get me through it all

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved

I let my guard down and then you pulled the rug

I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved".

- Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi

I was so afraid to find myself in a future toxic relationship

But then I realized that I'm the one who's toxic...