Mirrors

"Aren't you somethin' to admire?

Cause your shine is something like a mirror

And I can't help but notice

You reflect in this heart of mine

If you ever feel alone and

The glare makes me hard to find 

Just know that I'm always 

Parallel on the other side

Cause with your hand in my hand and a pocket full of soul

I can tell you there's no place we couldn't go 

Just put your hand on the glass 

I'll be trying to pull you through

(...)

Cause I don't wanna lose you now

I'm looking right at the other half of me

The vacancy that sat in my heart

Is a space that now you hold

(...)

It's like you're my mirror

My mirror staring back at me

I couldn't get any bigger

With anyone else beside of me

And now it's clear as this promise

That we're making

Two reflections into one

Cause it's like you're my mirror 

My mirror staring back at me

Aren't you somethin', an original

(...)

And I can't help but stare, cause

I see truth somewhere in your eyes

(...)

You reflect me, I love that about you

And if I could, I

Would look at us all the time

(...)

Yesterday is history

Tomorrow's a mystery

I can see you lookin' back at me

Baby, keep your eyes on me

(...)

Now you're the inspiration for this precious song

(...)

Girl you're my reflection, all I see is you

My reflection, in everything I do."

- Justin Timberlake 

"Não vim a este mundo para competir com ninguém. Quem quer competir comigo perde o seu tempo. 

Estou neste mundo para competir comigo mesma. 

Ultrapassar os meus limites, 
vencer os meus medos, 
lutar contra os meus defeitos, 
superar dificuldades, 
correr em busca dos meus objectivos
...E tudo isto já me ocupa bastante tempo."

And it always goes back to this. I'm crying. My eyes are empty and tears roll down my face. It gets hard to breath. The room starts spining. I feel like I'm going to faint. 

It would be easier if I did.

This happened so many times I already lost track of them. But I understood tonight that maybe that's a good thing. That means I've been strong enough to feel better again. What I don't understand is why do I get pushed to this all over again? I don't want to feel this way. I'm so scared. I read once that God would never put me through anything I can't handle but the truth is I don't feel like I can fight this anymore. Everytime it's like I'm falling into a black hole. And I'm scared one of this days I will. I'm so exausted. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I'm losing myself. 

What will happen to me?

I wanna feel powerful

"And all of a sudden I felt really tired. Like the world had drained me for everything that I had."